Am I doing it right? Meditation and Aphantasia

I have spent a great many years attempting to perfect the art of meditation. Spoiler: Is isn't something that can be perfected, but alas. Every time I closed my eyes I was welcomed with naught but a black void. Aside from the constant moving static from visual snow, but that is another matter entirely. Most of the people I talked to told me it was a matter of practicing more... so, I did. And I did... And I did... and nothing changed. I never saw the lovely landscapes or colors people would describe in their own journeys.

It wasn't until years later that everything suddenly made sense. Aphantasia... in other words the ability to visualize is more on a gradient scale than many people think. It isn't that I was doing something wrong, per se, and more that my brain just doesn't process information in that manner. It took running into other people like myself to learn this one. At this point I'd basically given up. What use was meditation if I wasn't able to visualize (as pretty much every guided meditation instructs you to do)

It didn't take me as many years this time, but it took a while to pull my head out of my ass and really look into how my brain works! The last few years have been like that, in fact. Looking into spiritual this and that and working out how it works best for -me-. In fact that is a large part of the purpose of this blog. Funny thing, that.

Back to the point. I'd come to find that meditation didn't need to mean visualization in the way I had believed. That you can rely on other senses for the same information. Imagine a cold wind across your skin... imagine hearing the sounds of birds, of rain... So many other ways to come to the same end. For myself in my present work of learning to be a psychic medium this is especially important. It's silly for me to expect that I'm going to experience things the same way as others. So, take how they do it and warp it to fit my own world. Which has become a pattern in most every part of my life as I dive deeper and deeper into my AuDHD mind.

All of this is to say... Don't give up. Every one around you might be doing things one way, but if that doesn't work for you there is no shame in bending about to find something that does! That is a cornerstone of my practice and something I'll preach forever. It is my hope that I can help others like me find some things that will work for them... or at least poke around at some new ideas.